Where She Leads |
Issue 6
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There was no free will when I got trapped in her orbit. She crawls in and embeds herself to your soul and refuses to let go.
I met her in a hospital…meet cute of the century right? It’s not like I actively look for love anymore. I’m not even sure I know what it is. Most days I don’t even know if I want it. Maybe some people just aren’t built for love. Maybe love is just an idea ingrained in us from our parents. I think most of us just settle on the idea just so we can justify not being alone. Perfectly cloned lives, cookie cutter perfect fits of a dream we have been sold. Then they dangle that golden carrot in forms of fairytales the ever elusive soulmates, fireworks, white picket fence, once in a lifetime kind of love stories. So we throw on those rose colored glasses and convince ourselves that good enough is fairytale love. We walk down the aisle and chain ourselves to the lie. I have had the so-called Prince Charming and the white wedding, the house and the two kids. I also could have had the straight out of high school love. The kind you think is real but it’s just the idea of forever that makes you say yes. None of them ever made me feel whole like she does. So If soulmates are spiritual bullshit then why does it feel like when we say goodbye a part of me is taken with her? Why does she feel like she fills that one empty puzzle piece inside of me perfectly? How could she immediately make me feel like we have known each other forever? I thought she was beautiful the very first time I saw her. She just made the room brighter. She would smile at me like I was important. I hated being separated from her even then. Because I had never met someone that seemed to get me on such a soul level. The more I got to know her as time went by I wanted to do anything in my power to protect her and love her so fiercely she would never question her worth again. But what they fail to tell you is sometimes love is hard and even soulmates sometimes separate. |
SAMANTHA CARROLL won 1st Place of the Fiction Writing Contest. She is a native of South Carolina. She has been writing since she was 11 years old. When she isn’t writing she enjoys flower arranging and spending time with her two kids.
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