Words​

Issue 13

I know the words, now
Borderline Personality Disorder
I always assumed it was too vague
to be useful
 
But now when I picture your loving
it feels like hooks sinking in
And while I thought it was rooting you
to me
it was always, a little, unsettling
 
Your acceptance was too unseeing
Your judgment was too over here
then over there to mean anything
 
It felt like something, having the weight of
you behind me
Now, with the memories, I have to drag your
form resentfully
 
Waiting for the adoration to
unhand me

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Bethany Ludwig-Eagan lives in Upstate New York with her husband and two cats. Despite graduating from SUNY Binghamton with a degree in philosophy, she currently works in financial services and is studying to become a Chartered Financial Consultant. In her free time, she enjoys writing poetry and short stories

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